Troiku Challenge 2019: Day 9: Pink Flowers Bloom


pink flowers in bloom
for the pretty princesses
darling little girls

pink flowers in bloom
pruned and fed fertilizer
twisted and transformed

for the pretty princesses
gifts wrapped in shiny paper
empty box of lies

darling little girls
hide ugly little secrets
not pretty inside

~Cie~



Notes:
A Senryu in honor of little girls who are taught from a young age that our only real worth is in our ability to be pleasing to the eyes and desires of men.

2 comments:

  1. Sigh.
    I hear you on the things we teach young women. Which dooms some of us to permanent failure.

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    1. There has always been such an onus on possessing a certain kind of beauty, which I never have, to be certain. I developed an eating disorder when I was 12 years old because I was so terrified of becoming fat. At this point I am fat, and so what? As J.K. Rowling said, “Is 'fat' really the worst thing a human being can be? Is 'fat' worse than 'vindictive', 'jealous', 'shallow', 'vain', 'boring' or 'cruel'? Not to me.”
      I still struggle with my toxic relationship with ED, but at this point it's not really by choice. I'm food insecure, so I tend to ration food and eat only one or two meals a day. ED starts praising me, and I tell him to fuck off. I would like to be able to eat three meals a day plus snacks. Starvation syndrome is for--well, nobody should have to experience it. It sucks. By the way, still fat, and if that matters to anybody, they really need to check themselves.
      Why is such emphasis placed on being a pretty decoration with no real skills or personality? It's something I learned over the years, that if I wasn't pretty in a certain way, I was nothing. Having been molested at a young age, I already saw myself as monstrous. Most days it's a fight to even see myself as just ordinary rather than horrible. It shouldn't be that way.

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